Tuesday, September 8, 2009
ONCE MORE FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK
I hope everyone had a safe, happy, fun and family filled 'Labor Day'.
It's been a few days since I've posted but before I begin yet ANOTHER of my soliloquies let me first say THANK YOU all for helping me become less blog stupid. :D
Your suggestions and offers of help blew me away! Unfortunately, they didn't blow me away to Ireland, Italy or...Walmart. But....that's okay, 'cause I'm here with you. Thank you, again, I will be attempting apply all your methods in an upcoming post. :)
So, this is what's been going on in my little part of the universe.
In addition to blogging, I Twitter.
Everyone has their own reasons for blogging and such:
*Perhaps it's the only time you have to yourself after a busy day with work and/or family.
*Perhaps you're not able to express yourself eloquently and audibly so you turn to blogging.
*Perhaps it's your way of reaching out and connecting--not feeling so alone.
*Perhaps it's the only thing you seem to have any control over in an otherwise seemingly out of control life.
For me, it's definitely the last three. Particularly the very last one--which brings me to my point--and do I have one???
::Searches frantically for point::
You know, I get really tired of having to post about the First Amendment and censorship.
I hope this will be the last time I have to do this--and the ONLY reason I am doing it now is because this time, it was PERSONAL.
It hit directly in my home right between me and my family--which was, of course, the intended and quite purposeful target.
Well, my blogger friends (and some not so friends) this is the deal: with all that said above, I twittered about my disappointment and very HONEST feelings about certain people in relation to the aftermath of a personal event in our lives recently.
These were not anyone else's words or feelings--these were MINE. I OWN THEM and, furthermore, I will not be robbed of them.
Somebody thought it a good idea to go and check out my 'tweets' for the SOLE purpose of digging up dirt and running to a member of my family with it.
In my tweets I was honest about my feelings about certain people--these were feelings and thoughts I will NOT delete, take back nor apologize for.
Consequences be damned--and let me add that there have indeed been many at a high and personal cost to myself.
But hear this--I WILL NOT CENSOR MYSELF.
The people that did this did so with only one purpose and intention in mind--to find exactly what they were looking for.
These are people who were once welcome in my heart--and in my home time and time again: slept over, been cooked for, cared for, listened to, understood and more importantly loved.
Fellow bloggers--this is what I would equate their sneaky, backhanded behavior to:
Let's say--you're having a conversation in another room. You and the second party excuse yourselves. Someone then sneaks up to the door and quietly listens hoping to get some dirt. Then they have the audacity to get upset at what they hear.
Well--don't listen. Quite simple.
Another example: you wrote some information down on a piece of paper. Someone intentionally goes looking for that piece of paper and when they find it--they don't like what it says.
Again, I have to ask what their motives are?
People know I blog and twitter, if you INTENTIONALLY go looking for something in these networks and then end up not liking what I say--simple solution? Don't go looking for them.
You will not remove my tongue, my thoughts, my words, my opinions, my wishes, my hopes, my feelings.
They are here to stay for as long as I have them.
You don't like them?
Don't read them.
THIS IS MY BLOG. Set up for this reason.
I have lost my dad, my daughter, my home, my job, my sense of security, my livelihood...
This is the only thing I can truly call my own.
“The man creates a pseudonym and hides behind it like a worm.”
My thoughts are out in the open--I'm not sneaking anywhere to put them. I'm not hiding them. I'm not using a veil of anonymity.
I'm an open book. Clearly to my own detriment at times but that's a chance I'm willing to take.
You'd think I was naming names to the senate!
However, I said it once and I'll say it again--you will not silence me.
Perhaps it's time for those who seek to search and destroy figure out their own purpose and balance in the universe and stop trying to throw me off my axis.
You may do a little damage but I will not fall with injury, without being able to pick myself up, dust myself off and continue on my own path which has no agenda other than self expression.
So, in closing 'Twitter me this':
What's your agenda?